The Day After My Physics Test

I'm dead..

The Day Before My Physics Test

I'm scared..

The Day I Wanna Talk About Eternal Sunshine On A Spotless Mind

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!" -Alexander Pope-

This post's for me 2 brothers *and a Sista* who are unfortunately stuck in the whirlpool of love *on contrary to recent beliefs - I am not, yes it has been a long time but no match-making pls*. The millon dollar questions for them both are: (1) Should u be able to erase all the painful memories, would you? (2) Would u do it again should u already know tt it would end in hurt and failure - an out-come you will have no influence over, what-so-ever.

Let me be unstructured and answer both qns in a clump *cant think straight due lack of sleep.. darn PESS camp is in 8 hours*

-Sorry guys, author is really sleepy.. will complete this post after the PESS Camp-


12:13 Am 27th July
Continuing this entry.. running through, in my mind, some of the bits of memories that I hold dear.. I noted that while some are happy, many others are sad. Isn't this what's life is all about? To me a good cry is as good as a good laugh. I wanna taste life in its raw-est form.. to fall deeply in love even if that means giving another the power to hurt u just as deep.. I really don't see the point of holding back and living life conservatively.. that would be like gambling on a coin toss by placing bets both on head as well as tail, true you won't lose... but you will never ever win. Thus I know I ain't ever gg to let anybody take me memories away from me.. cos they are the very things that define who I am and got me to where I am now.

And I would love another.. over and over again, even if I should know tt it would end in failure.. yes.. because my love should not be dependant the ending or reciprocation.. For those in courtship ask yourself:"Would you still say YES if she/he says NO." If you answer is NO.. then maybe its time for a re-think.. cos love is unconditional, its what I feel for you. There might not be an ending, but rite here rite now, u can look the person in the eye and say without flinching "I love you".


PS: Sorry Jedi Masters, will blog abt the Clone Storm Trooper on the next post.. was really really touched so I must write a good post about it =) *lack of sleep has blunted me writing facilities, I wanna do a convincing piece on why kung-fu hamster shld loan me his air-rifle*

Should I Run?

Literally. I have no less than 5 pple asking me the same qn over the past few days.. AllComers Meet was fun, but guess running has lost just that bit of magic... hmm hmm let me spend a few more late nites thinking..

Love brought me to track, track brought me love and I had loved track.. the smell of burning rubber, the squeaky sound when our spikes grip onto the rubber, the baton passes *UP!*, the pain of endurance sets *anything above 300m kills me*, first love, the joy of winning, the despair of losing, the silly jokes we crack when slacking and hiding from the coach, the smell of deep heat rubs, the smell of rain evaporating from the sun baked rubber, the Cedar girls *hah*, the bouncing baton @ Singapore Poly, the geek i lost to at nationals 1997, leading a team, the lane number sticker *me fav!*, leaning onto the curve...

Maybe.. if I can achieve the following soft targets by year-end... let me think let me think..
11.6
23.9
53.9
7:59
68

My Words II

Quotes quotes quotes by me =).

"Sometimes we screw things up and let fate clean up after us"

"Limits are walls we build around ourselves when we are afraid"

"I dun like playing card games with FATE... cos whatever card I draw.. I lose; as FATE will just change the rules"

"If there should come a time when u let life lose its way; be overcome by sadness, let your love ones down; decide nothing's worth fighting for no more - I'll come to u, for we will walk through the darkness, we will find the guiding light, make life all right. I will not forsake you, this I promise."

"I admit life's a constant struggle. But I have seen ordinary people overcome seemly unsurmountable odds. I know and accept that hurt and pain are part of living life but more importantly I know that they make us stronger, make us cherish and appreciate life. Therefore I simply cannot find it in myself to believe that we have come so far just to give up.. just to lose."

"Because life is so unpredictable.. because time can never be turned back... because happiness can be so fleeting.. because not all dreams are meant to be pursued.. because those who touched our lives are always in such a rush.. because relationships can be so fragile.. therefore we cast our feelings all aside therefore we lock the door on both sides"

The Day He Started Showing Signs Of Growing Insane

Cannot believe that he actually wrote her name on the sand in the long jump pit.

*Okies.. its just her initials.. but I think that's bad enough.. tsk tsk*

The Day I Did What a Normal, Mature Adult Will Do

"And of course I did what a normal, mature adult will do..... I ran away as fast as my legs could carry me.."